If you love something.........

If you love something let it go. If it comes back to you then its yours to keep. Isn't that how the old saying goes?...

2.a.m

darn if i meant to just ignore this post all together but i honestly forgot how to get to it this is my second blogspot to esccape all the eyes that live around me and know who i am. so i had to create a new email to create my new acct. i am hoping that i will atleast continue to start posting again. Yes its 2.a.m in the morning as i am sitting on my laptop at work. I am on my 9th straight day of being here and I am so ready to go home in the morning. Yes thank god I will be going home soon.

Happy New Year!

I hope as this year has flown in that everyone is having a good new year..I know its taking me a while to blog but as usual life has been a little busy here and right now I am easily distracted =p ... Has anyone made a new years resolutions???..
I only have one and that is to be happy no more making false ones that will not be kept I could say I would loose weight but i am doing that anyway and I could say i'll quit smoking again but that is an on going process and one day I'll succeed at it. that one i am not giving up on.. but this year I just simply want to be happy....
So if you have made any share I would like to know what your plans for the new year are..

Merry Christmas

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas this holiday season. I worked off this morning so this will be the first holiday I have been home in a few years not really sure how to act. Isn't that sad, we even did our christmas the last time i was home because I am so used to not having it on the 24th or 25th I am usually with my extended ems family..........
Remember to cherish and hold tight to all of your family and friends drink lots of eggnog { only if its spiked lol.}
Please be safe this holiday season please no drinking and driving and if you must be responsible and have a designated driver that has not been drinking!

The Ghost of Christmas Past!

while at work my partner and I had some down time between calls and she needed to go to wal-mart and pick a few things up.. As we walked down the isle's of the store we ran past the toy section and what do I catch out of the corner of my eye????? There in the bicycle section up in the air on a rack at eye level. Sitting there so pretty in its nice little perch smiling down taunting me with the smerk on its green little face......


Yep there it is the inch worm!!!!!!! I thought I was going to fall out and die. Omg! as I exclaimed my partner looking at me funny then looking at the inch worm..

My partner. "ohhhh isn't it sooo cute!." she exclaimed
me glaring at her with nose flared out.

Alllll I ever wanted was a bicycle all my friends had bicycles i wanted one tooo just a bike didn't matter what color it was heck I didn't care if it was second hand rusted out and had no seat as long as it had two wheels to fly me down the rode with my friends.
One Christmas morning I wake up to see a big box under the Christmas tree oooo this is it .. this is my bike I ripped into the paper tackling the ribbon which by the way if my mother ever wraps a present for you it will take c-4 explosives to get through the ribbon!! I am struggling with the ribbon I finally stretch it out enough to slip my little finger under it as it cuts my circulation almost off i slide the ribbon off the edges and wham shred through the paper. tug at the end of the box to open it and there inside the box I see something that is not shaped like a bike. Its green......it has a saddle type seat and its yellow with something sticking up on it then several inches away from it I see something else yellow what is this. my nose krinkled up I slowly reach in and take hold of the yellow sticks poking up off the saddle looking seat and I slowly pull it out of the box head tilted to one side as I am examining this thing I am pulling out of the box........ I walk around it looking it over ....
....there on the floor out of the box in full light for me to see is a shiny green bug smiling looking soooo friendly and innocent with its yellow hat on its head and the yellow seat the sticks are its antlers and are made for you to hold onto as you sit on its seat.....Ok its not a bike but hey its got potential. right? you would think right?.......
its time to try the inch worm out.....sit on the back push down .. the head and tail stretch out bounce up and they come together and you begin to move ok this is fun .. time to take it outside and meet up with your little friends oooooo what is it?!?!? ..its a bug.....well its an inch worm . I didn't get a bike but i got an inch worm. I hop on my little bug with its smile, hat and saddle and take off with my friends and they leave me in the dust.. I am hopping down the road up and down up and down hopping..... HOPPING!!!!! watching my friends get further and further away. they would circle back of course and ride extremly slow beside my hopping down the rode self. some of them almost falling to the side they were having to ride so slow lol of course we would swap turns on the inch worm everyone thought it was cool and fun but me to a point disappointed not to get a bike but had a fun ride... I really hated the inch worm but was enthusiastic about it to my parents. I think the inch worm is the only toy I remember the most over the years. do not get your child an inch worm thinking it can ever replace the hopes and dreams of a bicycle!! its just wrong!! and dream crushing....... The second thing I always wanted was a doll house you know the one if your a girl the huge plantation style doll house with the family and all the little furniture yes i wanted one and still do if i ever get my hands on one I swear it will be put in a glass case with an alarm system all around it and dare anyone to touch it!! but I got the next best thing....
I remember and spent hours playing with my weebles wobble haunted house and my scooby doo and the mystry inc. gang weebles and winnie the pooh tree house with the weebles I just couldn't find any pics of the weebles charactors...






I would sit in the floor of my bed room and solve mysteries for hours then I would play with winnie and tigger and go visit christopher robin and find honey for pooh bear lol omg such memories? What are you memories are they good bad or mixture of both??
Do you remember the little jingle for the weebles??.. "weebles wobbles but the don't fall down!" yeah its embeded in my memory to every time i think of them lol.

Murphy's emt laws

yes i love murphy's laws and stumbled upon some emt laws.
hope you enjoy.
Murphy's EMT laws. The first one is the law I live by and repeat often

* If it's wet and sticky and not yours -- LEAVE IT ALONE !!!



* Air goes in and out, blood goes round and round, any variation on this is bad.

* Try not to discuss "your day" at the family dinner table.

* You may not install a "car catcher" on the front of the ambulance.

* The more equipment you see on a EMT's belt, the newer they are.

* Examine all chest clutchers first, bleeders next, then the rest of the whiners.

* When dealing with citizens, if it felt good saying it, it was wrong.

* All bleeding stops... eventually.

* You can't cure stupid.

* "Riding shotgun" does not mean you shoot the tires of non-yielding vehicles.

* If at all possible, avoid any edible item that fire fighters prepare.

* EMS is extended periods of boredom, interrupted by moments of sheer terror.

* Every emergency has three phases: PANIC... FEAR... REMORSE.

* A good tape job will fix almost anything.

* Yuppies involved in accidents complain how bumpy the ambulance ride is.

* It's not a compliment when Policemen say you're crude, crass & cynical.

* The severity of the injury is directly proportional to the weight of the
patient.

* Turret mounted machine guns usually work better than lights and sirens.

* Schedule your days off to avoid working during full phases of the Moon.

* There is no such thing as a "textbook case".

* You've come to conclude 90% of all drunks are a waste of protoplasm.

* Never refer to someone in respiratory distress as a "Smurf".

* Automatically multiply by 3 the number of drinks they claim to have had.

* Your social skills will be lacking, if all your anecdotes deal with blood.

* Assume every female between 6 and 106 is pregnant until proven otherwise.

* Get very, very scared when a child is too quiet.

* Don't place bets on the glucose level of an unresponsive patient.

* You cannot institute a surcharge for unruly or surly patients.

* It is not necessary to have a pet name for your cardiac monitor.

* As long as stupidity remains epidemic in the US, you have job security.

* Don't worry about the gunshot wound as much as dealing with the family.

* All emergency calls will wait until you begin to eat, regardless of the time.
Corollary 1:
Fewer accidents would occur if EMS personnel would never eat.
Corollary 2:
Always order food "to go".

* The Paramedical Laws of Time:
There is absolutely no relationship between the time at which you are supposed to get off shift and the time at which you will get off shift. Given the following equation: T + 1 Minute = Relief Time, "T" will always be the time of the last call of your shift. E.g., If you are supposed to get off shift at 08:00, your last run will come in at 07:59. (Or if you have early relief coming in you will see you relief sitting at the first stop light from the station, waving!)

* The Paramedical Law of Gravity:
Any instrument, when dropped, will always come to rest in the least accessible place possible.

* The Paramedical Law of Time And Distance:

* The distance of the call from the Hospital increases as the time to shift change decreases.
Corollary 1:
The shortest distance between the station and the scene is under construction.

* The Paramedical Rule of Random Synchronicity:


Emergency calls will randomly come in all at once.

* The Rule of Respiratory Arrest: All patients who are vomiting and must be intubated will have just completed a large meal of Barbecue and Onions, Garlic Pizza, and Pickled Herring, all of which was washed down with at least three cans of Beer.

* The Basic Principle For Dispatchers:
Assume that all field personnel are idiots until their actions prove your assumption.

* The Basic Principle For Field Personnell:
Assume that all dispatchers are idiots until their actions prove your assumption.

* The Axiom of Late-Night Runs:
If you respond to any Motor Vehicle Accident call after Midnight and do not find a drunk on the scene, keep looking:
somebody is still missing.

* The Law of Options:
Any patient, when given the option of either going to Jail or going to the Hospital by a Police Officer, will always be inside the Ambulance before you are.

Corollary 1:
Any patient who chooses to go to Jail instead of the Hospital has probably been in my rig in the past.

* The First Rule of Equipment: Any piece of Life-saving Equipment will never malfunction or fail until:
a)You need it to save a life,
or
b)The salesman leaves.

* The Second Rule of Equipment:
Interchangeable parts don't, leak proof seals will, and self-starters won't.

* The First Law of Ambulance Operation:
No matter how fast you drive the Ambulance when responding to a call, it will never be fast enough, until you pass a Police Cruiser, at which point it will be entirely too fast. Unless you are responding to an "Officer Down" call then it is physically impossible to be traveling fast enough!

* Paramedical Rules of The Bathroom:
If a call is received between 0500 and 0700, the location of the call will always be in a Bathroom. If you have just gone to the Bathroom, no call will be received. If you have not just gone to the Bathroom, you will soon regret it. The probability of receiving a run increases proportionally to the time elapsed since last going to the Bathroom.

* Basic Assumption About Dispatchers:
Given the opportunity, any Dispatcher will be only too happy to tell you where to go, regardless of whether or not (s)he actually knows where that may be.
Corollary 1:
The existence or non-existence of any given location is of only minor importance to a Dispatcher.
Corollary 2:
Any street designated as a "Cross-street" by a Dispatcher probably isn't.
Corollary 3:
If a street name can be mispronounced, a Dispatcher will mispronounce it.
Corollary 4:
If a street name cannot be mispronounced, a Dispatcher will mispronounce it.
Corollary 5:
A Dispatcher will always refer to a given location in the most obscure manner as possible. E.g., "Stumpy Brown's Cabbage Field" is now covered by a shopping center.

* The First Principle of Triage:
In any accident, the degree of injury suffered by a patient is inversely proportional to the amount and volume of agonized screaming produced by that patient.

* The Gross Injury Rule:
Any injury, the sight of which makes you want to puke, should immediately be covered by 4x4's and Kerlix.

* The First Law of EMS Supervisors:
Given the equation: X - Y = Quality of Care where "X" is the care that you render and "Y" is the assistance supplied by any Supervisor. If you can eliminate "Y" from the equation, the Quality of Care will improve by "X".
Corollary 1:
Generally, Field Supervisors have no business in the Field.
Corollary 2:
The level of technical competence is inversely proportional to the level of management.
Corollary 3:
Technology is dominated by those who manage what they do not understand.

* The Law of Protocol Directives:
The simplest Protocol Directive will be worded in the most obscure and complicated manner possible. Speeds, for example, will be expressed as "Furlongs per Fortnight" and flow rates as "Hogsheads per Hour".
Corollary 1:
If you don't understand it, it must be intuitively obvious.
Corollary 2:
If you can understand it, you probably don't.

* The Law of EMS Educators:
Those who can't do, teach.

* The Law of EMS Evaluators:
Those who can neither do nor teach, evaluate.

* The Paramedical Law of Light:
As the seriousness of any given injury increases, the availability of light to examine that injury decreases.

* The Paramedical Law of Space:
The amount of space which is needed to work on a patient varies inversely with the amount of space which is available to work on that patient.

* The Paramedical Theory of Relativity:
The number of distraught and uncooperative relatives surrounding any given patient varies exponentially with the seriousness of the patient's illness or injury.

* The Paramedical Theory of Weight:
The weight of the patient that you are about to transport increases by the square of the sum of the number of floors which must be ascended to reach the patient plus the number of floors which must be descended while carrying the patient.
Corollary 1:
Very heavy patients tend to gravitate toward locations which are furthest from mean sea level.
Corollary 2:
If the patient is heavy, the elevator is broken, and the lights in the stairwell are out.

* The Rules of Non-Transport:
A Life-or-Death situation will immediately be created by driving away from the home of patient who has just thrown you out of their house. The seriousness of this situation will increase as the date of your trial approaches. By the time your ex-patient reaches the witness stand, the Jury will wonder how patient in such terrible condition could have possibly walked to the door and greeted you with a large suitcase in each hand.

* The First Rule of Bystanders:
Any bystander who offers you help will give you none.

* The Second Rule of Bystanders:
Always assume that any Physician found at the scene of an emergency is a Gynecologist, until proven otherwise.
Corollary 1:
Never turn your back on a Proctologist.

* The Rule of Warning Devices:
Any Ambulance, whether it is responding to a call or traveling to a Hospital, with Lights and Siren, will be totally ignored by all motorists, pedestrians, and dogs which may be found in or near the roads along its route.
Corollary 1:
Ambulance Sirens can cause acute and total, but transient, deafness.
Corollary 2:
Ambulance Lights can cause acute and total, but transient, blindness. Note: This Rule does not apply in California, where all pedestrians and motorists are apparently oblivious to any and all traffic laws.

* The Law of Show-And-Tell:
A virtually infinite number of wide-eyed and inquisitive school-aged children can climb into the back of any Ambulance, and, given the opportunity, invariably will.
Corollary 1:
No emergency run will come in until they are all inside the Ambulance and playing with the equipment.
Corollary 2:
It will take at least four times as long to get them all out as it took to get them in.
Corollary 3:
A vital piece of equipment will be missing.

* The Rule of Rookies:
The true value of any rookie EMT, when expressed numerically, will always be a negative number. The value of this number may be found by simply having the rookie grade his or her ability on a scale from 1 to 10.
For rookie EMT's medical skill:
1 = Certified Health Hazard, 10 = Jonny or Roy.
For rookie EMT's behind the wheel:
1 = Obstruction to Navigation, 10 = Mario Andretti.

The true value of the rookie is then found by simply negating the rookie's self-assigned value.
Corollary 1:
Treat any rookie assigned to your Unit as you would a Bystander. (See The First Rule of Bystanders, above.)

* The Rule of Rules:
As soon as an EMS Rule is accepted as absolute, an exception to that Rule will immediately occur.
All of the laws above were sent by Ted Fisher

* It's not a bugle, it's a drain for common sense

* If you're wearing blue and a badge, it doesn't matter what kind it is when the crowd gets riled

* The mere tone of your voice during the patient report to the hospital can often determine what you're required to do in the field

* Don't be surprised if your patient changes names based on whether it's the cops or the FD/EMS asking questions

* The one patient you don't glove up for is the one with "the crud"

* You never get incorrectly dispatched or make a wrong turn going to a BS call

* Patients suffer "ambulancenesia" - they deny any medical problems or history during your assessment, but once you arrive at the ER they "suddenly remember" that they have/had any of a myriad number of medical conditions, causing the ER staff to look at you like you like you're totally clueless

* "Escriba su nombre aqui" is not spanish for "do you want to go to the hospital?"
Last eight laws were sent by Tango7 - Firefighter/Paramedic

Yipes!!!!

Ok so I have a few postings to make up for being gone so long lol so there are new post under this one. but if I don't make them all in one day i'll forget that I wanted to post about it.... so here goes this one and titled Yipes i think is appropriate and you will find out why...

I have this friend that I have known my whole life we met she was a toddler we moved lost contact and found each other again in high school and we have been close ever since through out the good and the bad times.. somewhere along the way my friend has turned into a huge alcoholic with extensive problems one also being the relationship she is in now that is very abusive and I can not nor can anyone get her away from him. she calls me cying all of the time begging me to come find her she of course will be drunk and riding the roads saying he is after her and of course i run out the door to travel and hour and half away to try to find her and i can't but i get a picture of him texted to me with his head bandaged up and a message telling me "what you are ho" that I don't understand and I am not trying to all i do know is she stopped her car and allowed herself to be caught by him again. I don't know how to get her help or where to turn her parents is not an option but this is not a post about that i'll have to make on on her later and it will be extremly long.... years ago after high school melissa married michael we were all very close they moved him being in the military and after a few years settled in louisiana not to far from with in less than 2 hrs driving distance... down the road melissa discovered she was bi-sexual and for some reason thought that I wouldn't be her friend any more because of her new found sexuality which of course did not change our friendship after all its her preference not mine and I am not going to throw a good friend away because of that.... later her and michael divorced and she married another man that ended in divorce and she met stephanie...
stephanie reminded me of tom cruise really and truely she did in her looks but they stayed together through the years and we all would hang out together and stephanie and I became close friends through her and melissa's relationship... they break up melissa goes through numerous relationships and ends up with the abusor she is with now....

in the mean time she keeps contact with stephanie which she knows she still has some feelings left for her as a friend... and also stephanie and I still remain friends we talk on the phone with each other and before hanging up we tell each other we love each other which is no big deal to me we are good friends and care what happens to the other one we all tell our friends we love them right? and not think twice of the innocents of it right??... well i know I do and i don't think twice about it but maybe i should of........
a week and a half ago my phone rings its 1:30 a.m its stephanie.. she has been drinking but she wants to know if i had heard from melissa because we both have just been ill and worried sick thinking the next time we hear anything it will be someone telling us she is dead that is our worst fear and one I am afraid will come true if she don't try to help her self...any way....
we talk further and stephanie heard a song a strange time in the morning to be calling someone wanting to know the name of a tune but she thought of melissa the song turned out to be L.A. Guns "what happened to jane."

Then she goes "ya know why don't we ever go out any more? I mean we are friends right?"
me." yes we are friends and I dunno your always working I am always working. I am in a relationship and its looking serious and he really didn't like it when me and some of the co-workers go out to the club in the town we work in but he knows he after I explained to him I got what I want I am not looking for anyone else I don't want anyone else I am only going out with co-workers we are having a few drinks a few laughs and we leave we come in together we leave together we don't leave with anything extra we didn't walk in with and he seemed to be some what ok with it."

stephanie."oh, well why dont' we go out sometime the only times we have gone out and done anything melissa was always with us unless my being gay bothers you."

me." stephanie come on you know it don't bother me never has bothered me so why would it bother me now?"

Stephanie." I dunno i just thought maybe you wouldn't want to be seen with me."

me ." you crack head! I am working this weekend and the next weekend i'll have time off during the week what do you want to do do."

stephanie." why didn't we ever get together?...{me listening to what she just said thinking huh what does she mean by this that is an odd way to put something. god i am such a dumbass sometimes!!}.....I mean I know your straight but why didn't me and you ever hook up? I have loved you from the day we met. your a good woman I need a good woman in my life you will keep me grounded... it wasn't melissa I stayed with all those years it was wanting to see you the reason why I stayed with her."

ok i am freaked out at this point. and not sure what the hell to say I mean this is a good friend...friend we talk we share idea's like friends do..we crack jokes with each other we hang out or used to alot with melissa we still stay in contact via the phone and we give advice when needed like friends do holy shit houston we have a problem.....

me." um..well steph.. I um {yeah i am a studdering idot right now}

Stephanie." see there ya go your bothered by me being gay... just let me take you out i'll treat you good you will never have to want for anything you know this i'll take care of you."

me." steph as a friend we can go out but um i you know I I I am just well you know striaght."

stephanie." but I love you."

me." shit i love you to as a friend. your a great friend."

stphanie." your a good woman I need you in my life look at my past look what i have found they all have been no good for me. but you are."
me." look its late i got work in like 3 hours."
stephanie." I am sorry I didnt' mean to keep you up i didn't realize it was this late when i called I'll come by monday i am off of work can I come by monday and we talk. maybe go somewhere I won't bite you and I won't do anything to you . you don't want done . I mean well you know what I mean I won't do anything to you."

thinking to myself oh shit what do i do?? how am i going to handle this.

me." ok monday i work off that morning i'll be home we can talk and we can go do something but steph we are friends and friends only."

stephanie." i know we are friends but i do love you always have. good night."

phone hangs up I am wide awake now how do i go back to sleep after something like that.

a few days ago my phone rings i am on a call at work its stephanie wanting to know where i am she is in the town i live in and thought i was off i had to cut the call short and didnt' get to talk to her then... i got to talk to her again after that..
again she wanted to know when was we going to go out this time as friends and she apologised for the phone convo we had earlier she had been drinking but her feelings are still the same. but she asked me again how come me and her never got together and I flat out told her because i am straight and in a relationship with a man i like men i do i do i like green eggs and ham and men one man in particular and she seemed to understand this like she did when she first asked but how do i handle this. stephanie is a good person and has been caught up in some really bad sucky relationships where the people take advantage of her generousity and she does take care of the person she is involved with she is honest about that but the fact of the matter still stands she is a woman, I am a woman, she likes woman , I am a one man woman and no in between. I do not want to hurt her feelings I need some good advice with this one. now you see why my title is YIPES!!!